Update.

Hey girlies..

As you know I was doing a 6 week challenge but unfortunately I had a bad spell in my mood the past 3 weeks of it..

When I get a bad week I feel like I just want to crawl into a ball and hide away.
I don't want to see anyone. I didn't even have any interest in netflix I just wanted to sleep all the time.

I think the main reason for my 3 week long bad spell was because I knew my aunt anniversary was coming up, not seeing my friends and being anxious over rugby starting up again soon..

I haven't put on any weight over the past three weeks.. In fact I have lost it from my upper legs but no change to my belly which I was most concerned about. But I have kept to eating better food throughout the week like salads in work and having smaller portions for dinner and drinking water.

But I just feel horrible in myself.. I feel very fat and unfit and lethargic. I feel like someone has taken over my body, im scrutinising every piece of myself and it's making me worse and no matter how much I tell myself to stop I can't.

So I'm restarting my 6 week challenge with the help of my best friend.

He is a personal trainer and is putting together a shopping list and diet plan and workout plan for me..

I will do my shop on Thursday and post what I buy, when ill eat what and instagram the shiz out of it like the hun I am 😗.

This time ill be doing a update every single week and im going to stick to it.

I have to for rugby's sake.. I need to be the player everyone says I can be and I know in myself i can be that player too..

It's tough going tho, especially when you don't believe in yourself, your strenght, your abilities and you feel as though your teammates or coaches don't believe in you.

But I need to change my mind set.. and it's going to be hard going.

I know I need to make these changes for myself too.. If I can't love myself then how would I ever expect someone else to?

I hope I do it.
I am going to do it.

Wish me luck gals..

I'm definitely gonna need it

Nikkie xo